29 January 2013


 Yeah, guess so....but
these are anyway what I have wanted, so don't feel regret about the shopping.
Well, just, oh, something's wrong with me now. Dead.

Losing myself

There are too many things to have in my heart and brain, but I cannot make any words to release
all of them from there. Just piling up piling up piling up. I don't have any energies to go to school, 
go to work, do things, have conversations with people, think normally. I don't even know what I am.
Ha.. I've been tired of feeling like this for years..  I might need tranquilizers again.
That couldn't be the solution to kill these feelings even if I got tranquilizers, though.
I didn't expect that I would become a loser when I was little. Funny.

14 January 2013

First snow in 2013